How's everyone feeling today, 9/11?

[TwinFoxes]

We've had the where were you threads, and the how to tell DCs threads. Just wanted to send hugs to all of you on this day. I think most of us are effected. I was watching CNN's lookback on their website, and it features their live broadcast that morning. As the time got closer and closer to when the 2nd plane would hit, my hands started shaking. I finally had to stop it before it got to the footage. I probably saw it 1000 times in my old job as a journalist, but I haven't seen it in 10 years, and I just couldn't bring myself to watch again. Anyway, love to you all, especially those of you who lost friends and relatives that day, or in the wars since. God bless America.

[JBaxter]

I get a little numb. Logan was 9 yrs old when it happened. He was crushed and terrified that day/night. We had been on the top of WTC that summer so it was very real for him. He cried and refused to let me turn off the news. I had a dear friend ( former bf) who lived on Staten Island and had spent many weekends taking us around the city. We tried for 2 days to get through to him and finally did.
I morn for all that lost their lives, family members and friends and I morn the day my son lost his childhood innocence that really bad people exist in this world. It made me realize what other mothers around the world must deal with in times of war.
I relive the feeling of a 9 yr old sobbing in my arms.

[amldaley]

I am feeling sad, grateful, angry, resolved and exhausted.

[crl]

Sad and a bit numb.

Catherine

[almostamom]

I'm watching the ceremony on tv and I can't stop crying as they read the names of the victims and show their pictures. Watching people kiss stones where their loved ones names are etched is heart breaking. I can't imagine how emotional it would be to be there today or what it was like to be in that area ten years ago. I was on the opposite end of the country trying to reassure a room full of 9 year olds that they were safe. I know how frightened we all were and we were thousands of miles away. I just can't even fathom what New York and its people went through.

[Cam&Clay]

DH leaves for Afghanistan on Tuesday. I suggested a few weeks ago that we get together with friends today to have a goodbye party for him. I hesitated when I realized it was 9/11, but one of my friends said she couldn't think of a better thing to do on 9/11 than to go to a party for a man who is leaving to go over there.

So all of our friends and neighbors are gathering tonight at DH's favorite pizza joint for pizza and beer. It will be a happy and sad evening, I'm sure.

[sweetsue98]

I haven't watched anything on TV today. The last couple days of news were too emotional for me.

[wendibird22]

Haven't watched any tv coverage today because we don't want to expose the girls. Last night I watched Flight 93 and wept through most of it.

[buddyleebaby]

I woke up with a heavy heart. I can't call it sad, exactly. Just a tight feeling in my chest and a lump in my throat. The morning looks nothing like it did on 9/11. It's rainy and gray.
We were watching the NY memorial, as always, and my girls asked to go to Church. I really did not want to go today, but they asked, so we did.
At the end of Mass, the organist played "America the Beautiful" and at first the Church was quiet except for the music, and then suddenly everyone was singing through their tears. It made me think of NY right after the attacks. The sense of community was like nothing I had ever experienced, and truly nothing I have ever experienced since. Everyone was your brother.
We stopped in a store on the way home and they had dogs for adoption outside. We spend a lot of time petting them. They were really cute. We went inside and another little girl came up to my daughter and hugged her and said "Hey, you look pretty!.
I am grateful for cute dogs and cute kids. They always give you a reason to smile, even on hard days.
We've just kind of bunkered in now, not really doing much of anything- just happy we are able to be together.

[echoesofspring]

I woke up with a heavy heart. I can't call it sad, exactly. Just a tight feeling in my chest and a lump in my throat. The morning looks nothing like it did on 9/11. It's rainy and gray.
We were watching the NY memorial, as always, and my girls asked to go to Church. I really did not want to go today, but they asked, so we did.
At the end of Mass, the organist played "America the Beautiful" and at first the Church was quiet except for the music, and then suddenly everyone was singing through their tears. It made me think of NY right after the attacks. The sense of community was like nothing I had ever experienced, and truly nothing I have ever experienced since. Everyone was your brother.
We stopped in a store on the way home and they had dogs for adoption outside. We spend a lot of time petting them. They were really cute. We went inside and another little girl came up to my daughter and hugged her and said "Hey, you look pretty!.
I am grateful for cute dogs and cute kids. They always give you a reason to smile, even on hard days.
We've just kind of bunkered in now, not really doing much of anything- just happy we are able to be together.


This just really choked me up.

I'm sad and a bit numb. My heart goes out to all the people who lost someone that day. And I'm sad for us as global community, it does not seem like peace is any closer.

[LarsMal]

I woke up with a heavy heart. I can't call it sad, exactly. Just a tight feeling in my chest and a lump in my throat.

This is exactly how I've been feeling. I have DVR'd some of the coverage today and specials that will be on tonight, but I can't watch it yet. I don't want the kids around. We've talked to them a little bit about what today is, but I don't really want them seeing the coverage. They internalize a lot.

The few glimpses I've gotten of coverage today have left me choked up. I really can't believe it's been 10 years. Seeing it on TV feels like it happened yesterday, and brings back all the memories of being in my classroom, hoping and praying that all of our parents working in DC were going to make it back to us okay.

DD said something to me like, "Are people celebrating today?" I told her, "No, they are remembering." She replied, "Well, some people are probably celebrating. Really bad people like Osama bin Laden (who she knows is dead) are celebrating, right?" That's why we can't talk about it/watch it much- she's 4.5, and thinks waayy to much. I explained that while some bad people might be celebrating the bad things they did, we are remembering and celebrating the lives of the people who they hurt or killed. That's about all I can handle right now!

[Tondi G]

I woke up with a heavy heart. I can't call it sad, exactly. Just a tight feeling in my chest and a lump in my throat.

You described it just right! I sit here listening to my kids and neighbors kids playing in the background and so thankful that my 1st was just an infant when it happened so the reality of it for him is not the same way it is for me. My heart goes out to all the people who lost someone that horrible day.

[Melaine]

We didn't go to church today, partially because it's been a long tiring week, but mostly because I knew that there would be a lot of talk, and possibly visuals that I didn't want the girls to see. They are very perceptive and I haven't told them anything about 9/11....I just don't think they are ready and I know I'm not ready to share it with them. My heart breaks for all of us and our children who weren't ready to face reality on that horrible day. It's hard to believe that it's been 10 years. In some ways, the wound still feels so fresh. In other ways, our country has aged so much more than a decade.

[Melbel]

A heavy heart and an ocular migraine. Sweet DH went to 3 pharmacies to fill an Imitrex prescription. DS took DH to a pro football game and I cannot help but worry about the risk of a terrorist attack on this 10 year anniversary even though I know the risk is low.

[Roni]

It's been an up & down day. We had dd3's first birthday party today, so that helped. But I choked up on the way to church when I heard Whitney Houston's Star Spangled Banner on the radio and bawled at church when we sang God Bless America.

[infomama]

We lowered our flag this morning and that was rough.

I haven't been able to watch too many of the tributes on TV. We all have our own reasons why 9/11 effects us so deeply. I'll keep those to myself but today......today was really hard on both DH and I.

[ilfaith]

Ten years ago I was newly married and living in Manhattan. Although I was lucky enough not to have known anyone killed in the attacks on the Towers, I knew many people who did, and the events of that day and the days immediately after are still so fresh in my mind I can still smell the smoke and taste the dust that hung over the city like a shroud.

Today I am nearly a thousand miles away, in Florida, and it feels strange that here life is going on as if nothing happened. This morning my 5-year-old had soccer practice. I attended a Sisterhood luncheon at my temple, then I took my oldest son to his fencing lesson and stopped at the supermarket to pick up milk on the way home. I did watch some of the memorial this morning, but part of me feels like I should be doing more to mourn. I imagine if I were still in New York this would be a more solemn day, so perhaps I feel a little guilty for going about with my everyday business.

[Uno-Mom]

I am thinking about my in-laws in NYC. I live on the west coast. DH and I got married on November 11th 2001 and flew to NYC for a reception. The whole thing was so distant for us here, but visiting them just two months after the attack was a whole different vibe. (My MIL had trouble ordering flowers for our reception b/cs the florists were all so busy covering funeral flowers.)

But honestly it's back to feeling distant to me. We went downtown to our city's huge artisan's market this morning - there were security guys in every alley and helicoptors circling over head! It took me a minute to realize why.

I thought about coming home quicker than necessary because of all that but then decided HE!! NO. I'm not cutting our fun time and support of our local artists short because of a terror threat. No way. So, that's how I paid tribute to 9/11 today. I feel it was fitting.

[lmwbasye]

I've been torn all day. I'm always proud of our country and my husband. We are visiting my parents in North Jersey and I took my boys to the park today to get out of the house. There were a ton of people there for a birthday party and I just sat and watched at how happy and carefree everyone seemed and just dreamt about what it would be like to live around family and friends and have cousins grow up around one another. And I'm happy that 10 years later, there is proof that America is thriving and strong.

At the same time, I'm angry today that, 10 years later, while some have been able to move on in one way or another, I'm still very much dealing with 9/11 day-to-day and have been since that date with the constant prepping for deployments, going through deployments, or recovering for deployments. My husband is gone again and it's tiring and hard and frustrating. People say, "always remember...never forget..etc" and I literally can't forget because it's still affecting my everyday life in an extreme way. It is an important job that he does and I'm so proud of him. But, it just gets to me some days and today seemed to bring that out for whatever reason.

That being said, I'm very lucky to have my husband in good health and on this Earth while others were not so lucky. So, I just remember to thank God for that and think of those who are also dealing with that day in a very real and personal way.

[hillview]

Somber and sad right now. Today I spent a lot of time with the kids and we had a nice quiet day.

[TwinFoxes]

DH and I got married on November 11th 2001 and flew to NYC for a reception. The whole thing was so distant for us here, but visiting them just two months after the attack was a whole different vibe.

You got married one day after me. I got married 5 blocks from the White House, and there were anti-aircraft guns still set up. :( But boy, were people in the mood for a party! And the hotel where our guests stayed was so grateful for the business, there had been many cancelations (not surprisingly).

For all of you military wives, I really am awed by your, I don't even know the right word, is it stamina? Any way, it's impressive whatever it is.

[Reina]

It was a somber day in New York City today. Lower Manhattan was almost completely shut down for traffic. There was a lot of silence. Even the tourists seemed subdued - a welcome change.
I lost 5 dear friends 10 years ago today. I walked the rubble covered streets in fear and panic 10 years ago today. Saw some horrible things with my naked eyes. So yeah, I was feeling like ****.
So, no ... I will not forget. 9/11 will forever be on my mind...