I worked my first 3 hours today, was away from DS for almost 4 hours. My neighbor watched him, I am just doing some training. My employer is closed next week, so I am just putting in a few hours this week to learn the job a little (I will be covering a maternity leave) then DS will start at daycare July 6, and I will be working M-W-F. Next week I will bring him to the daycare several times to try to get him acclimated.

My neighbor is really great with him, but she is not intereted in any kind of regular babysitting gig, as she travels a lot to see her children and grandchildren.

So anyway, everything is going fine so far, but I just feel so sad. A constant nagging sadness.

Just had to get that out there.