I'm going to make this brief, so I'm not in tears again over the issues...
Andrew has had a bad case of jaundice that has required several days of at home bili-blanket treatment, and after taking him off the blanket, his numbers started going back up. He may need to be hospitalized. That in itself is bad enough, but now there is added concern as to WHY is his body not able to lower the levels itself.
In addition to that, the midwives (whom I am so very thankful for) found a heart murmur only minutes after his birth. So after a trip to the pediatric cardiologist yesterday, we found out he has pulmonary valve stynosis, and will require heart catheterization (under general anesthesia--which scares me to death)--in only 3 weeks. He is just so perfect...the idea of anyone doing anything to his sweet little body, and causing him any pain just shakes me to the core.
Please keep Andrew and our family in your thoughts and prayers. I have had postpartum depression with my last two kiddos and I'm terrified this all may be the straw that breaks the camels back this time around. My mother also left this morning after a week of help, and now it's just DH and I here with the "dynamic duo" and the baby. Pray for our strength to make it through this rough time, and come out stronger on the other side.
Thanks so much,