I've been reading other threads with interest and wanted to get feedback about something.
For years I WAH part time in my field and related projects, volunteered lots, did all sort of home projects, all without dh around much (he was always working). I could get by on 5-6 hours of sleep and had the energy to function just fine. My friends were amazed by my energy. A year ago that all changed. You'd think I'd have more energy because my PT gig ended, dh has cut back his work hours for the past couple of years, kids are older, etc.. but I got to the point where I was sleeping a lot during the day and not getting much done. I could manage getting through the day and doing what had to get done, but I was struggling with my energy levels. Oddly enough, during this time I could barely write or even proofread my friend's website (something I could easily do before).
Another friend needed help with an essay, and I struggled to do it, whereas over the years I have helped numerous friends and family members with such projects (one of my strengths) and, heck, I got paid to write! It was quite disconcerting.. though of course that didn't stop me from posting on the BBB
When this started, i was walking a lot to train for a race (walking) so I figured that was sucking my energy. Plus, let's face it, I turned 40! The doctor ran all sorts of tests (inc. thyroid) and everything came back normal. As of late, I have been trying to get at least seven hours of sleep, as I realize that is important for general health - I've heard that you need more sleep as you get to your 40s.. It got better, but I'm still dragging. Once I get into a project, I get hooked on it and get motivated somehow, but it's really hard to get to that point. I started taking Vit. D on my own - been wanting to get that checked.
The strange thing is, for about five months over the last year I managed a very time-consuming volunteer project. You'd think that would have been a disaster, but I got my energy back! I was able to run on adrenaline and enjoyed that rush of meetings deadlines and hearing praise for my efforts. I started using an organization program and enjoyed being more efficient, though I was quite busy.
Now that it's over, I am starting to drag again (though not to the same extent), so I'm wondering if it's some sort of mild depression related to my self-esteem or.. what? I'm thinking it will help for me to do some sort of work (paid or volunteer) in my field, but I'm not sure that addresses the problem. Any thoughts? My doctor never brought up depression, but she knows I suffer from anxiety IRT health issues and some other things. I do have anxiety over trying to find another PT job or even volunteer position.