Dr says to give DS special formula- I am SO, SO SAD!!!

[Elilly]

Graham has been seeing a ped gastroenterologist for weight loss. He is 5 months and weighed 15+ lbs in Dec and is now barely 14 lbs. Four weeks ago, I started a dairy and soy free diet (I was already egg, nut and shellfish free) hoping that it was an allergy issue (DD has an egg and shellfish allergy). But still no improvement in the weight or eczema departments. So, after his weight check yesterday, the GI doc wants to put him on neocate. I know that DS is not gaining weight and at this point I would do ANYTHING for him to be healthy, but it makes me so sad to not BF. I was, and still am, so determined to BF for at least a year. DH just doesn't "get it". I feel as if I will be losing a bond with Graham and that makes me so very sad and guilty - I feel as if I have failed him in some way. But I was just trying to do what I thought was best for him. Ugh... this is so frustrating. Thank goodness he is a happy baby. I just wish he was healthy too. Sorry, I guess I should have posted this in the bitching forum.