LarsMal
12-03-2006, 09:54 AM
Ugh...I'm just having one of those mornings, and I need to vent. I am doing it here, because as far as everyone I know is concerned, "Things are great!" I have to keep my game face on, so I'm just going to whine here for a few minutes and then get back to my game!
Whine #1: I AM SO TIRED OF BEING PREGNANT!!! I know I am very blessed to be a Fertile Myrtle, but I really just want my body back (I guess that won't fully happen until I finish BF DD). I stopped BF'ing DS at 7 months and two weeks later I was preggo- oops! We wanted to have our children close, but weren't really planning on THIS close. I honestly feel like I've been preggo for 2 solid years (it all runs together)! I am completely exhausted- physically, mentally, and emotionally. My back is killing me, my tail bone is "stuck" and it is hard to stand up/sit down, you name it- it hurts! It is getting harder to chase DS (15mos) around the house, and it doesn't help that DH has been working like a dog lately, so I'm completely on my own. Which brings me to whine #2...
Whine #2: I FEEL LIKE I'M ON MY OWN!! I know that DH's career is the reason I can be a SAHM (again, why I'm bitching here, not to DH) but he has been working 24/7 recently and I feel like I'm on my own. We recently moved 2 hours away from my family/friends/network and now DH is working constantly. He came home yesterday for a dinner break, but he got up at 5:40 this morning, and is back at the office now. I feel completely isolated and alone- not to mention bored! I used to be able to visit family, friends, or playgroup buddies when he got busy like this, but I don't have that now, and it is making me a little depressed. Doesn't help that the holidays are around the corner and we're not ready at all b/c I can't shop with DS like I could if DH was with us, or kept DS at home while I went out on my own. ugh...
Oh, did I mention that in the past week I have painted a bathroom, hung lights on the house- both front and back- and put up our artificial tree (the real tree goes up next weekend)? Okay, so maybe that's why my back hurts so badly, but I need to get things done, and I can't wait for DH, so I just need to make it work- big belly, DS in tow and all!!
I think that's all for now. Time to put the smile back on my face and get back to work! And I know, my little girl will be here soon- but not soon enough!
Thanks for listening!
Whine #1: I AM SO TIRED OF BEING PREGNANT!!! I know I am very blessed to be a Fertile Myrtle, but I really just want my body back (I guess that won't fully happen until I finish BF DD). I stopped BF'ing DS at 7 months and two weeks later I was preggo- oops! We wanted to have our children close, but weren't really planning on THIS close. I honestly feel like I've been preggo for 2 solid years (it all runs together)! I am completely exhausted- physically, mentally, and emotionally. My back is killing me, my tail bone is "stuck" and it is hard to stand up/sit down, you name it- it hurts! It is getting harder to chase DS (15mos) around the house, and it doesn't help that DH has been working like a dog lately, so I'm completely on my own. Which brings me to whine #2...
Whine #2: I FEEL LIKE I'M ON MY OWN!! I know that DH's career is the reason I can be a SAHM (again, why I'm bitching here, not to DH) but he has been working 24/7 recently and I feel like I'm on my own. We recently moved 2 hours away from my family/friends/network and now DH is working constantly. He came home yesterday for a dinner break, but he got up at 5:40 this morning, and is back at the office now. I feel completely isolated and alone- not to mention bored! I used to be able to visit family, friends, or playgroup buddies when he got busy like this, but I don't have that now, and it is making me a little depressed. Doesn't help that the holidays are around the corner and we're not ready at all b/c I can't shop with DS like I could if DH was with us, or kept DS at home while I went out on my own. ugh...
Oh, did I mention that in the past week I have painted a bathroom, hung lights on the house- both front and back- and put up our artificial tree (the real tree goes up next weekend)? Okay, so maybe that's why my back hurts so badly, but I need to get things done, and I can't wait for DH, so I just need to make it work- big belly, DS in tow and all!!
I think that's all for now. Time to put the smile back on my face and get back to work! And I know, my little girl will be here soon- but not soon enough!
Thanks for listening!