lmintzer
03-16-2004, 07:37 PM
My first day back to work lived up to fears for it. Jack did very well, but poor little Joshua was a wreck. He balked at his bottles, only taking 2 oz. in the morning and refusing entirely for a while in the afternoon and then taking 1/2 oz. at a time for a total for the day of 3 3/4. He wouldn't sleep. My nanny walked him and rocked him for the entire time Jack was napping (an hour and a half), and he just cried, screamed hysterically, or fell asleep for 5 minutes at a time.
By the time I came home, he was calm (she had taken them for a car ride) and not crying from hunger. I asked about dirty and wet dipes, and she said he'd had 2 small poops and 1 really wet diaper and 1 damp diaper. Not too bad for as little as he ate.
I'm not actually worried about the poor milk intake--I know he'll make up for it.
I'm more concerned about just how miserable and unsoothable (is that a word?) he was and the fact that my nanny was crying because he wasn't eating. I am glad she is such a sensitive, caring person, but the image of the crying caregiver just wasn't a good one for me to be left with. I am all in favor of tears and not holding feelings in--but as a mom, I guess I have a double standard. I want to be able to picture safe, stable environment while I'm gone. Maybe this isn't fair. It was just the first day.
Now I dread going back on Thurs. because I'm going to be gone 10-11 hours (as compared to the 8 I was gone today).
Why does everything with my babies have to feel so hard? When do I get cut some slack?
Sorry for the downer of a message. . . I'm just feeling bummed right now.
By the time I came home, he was calm (she had taken them for a car ride) and not crying from hunger. I asked about dirty and wet dipes, and she said he'd had 2 small poops and 1 really wet diaper and 1 damp diaper. Not too bad for as little as he ate.
I'm not actually worried about the poor milk intake--I know he'll make up for it.
I'm more concerned about just how miserable and unsoothable (is that a word?) he was and the fact that my nanny was crying because he wasn't eating. I am glad she is such a sensitive, caring person, but the image of the crying caregiver just wasn't a good one for me to be left with. I am all in favor of tears and not holding feelings in--but as a mom, I guess I have a double standard. I want to be able to picture safe, stable environment while I'm gone. Maybe this isn't fair. It was just the first day.
Now I dread going back on Thurs. because I'm going to be gone 10-11 hours (as compared to the 8 I was gone today).
Why does everything with my babies have to feel so hard? When do I get cut some slack?
Sorry for the downer of a message. . . I'm just feeling bummed right now.