marinkitty
03-25-2004, 08:01 PM
So I posted yesterday afternoon about Mia's high fever (and got a couple of great responses - thanks again).
I took today off work and took her into the ped. Of course I'd given her Motrin at 10 a.m. and we went in at 11:45 so the fever was down a bit tho she was congested. She has been to the dr. so much lately and after the ER visit where they stuck her 3 times to get blood, then gave her an IV, then about 6 people poked and prodded her, understandably she now loses it when we see any medical person.
We ended up with a male dr. today which makes it that much worse as she has developed extreme anxiety around strange men. So she is literally falling to pieces just screaming, hypervenilating, gagging during the exam, then they want a urine sample and tell me we can attach an adhesive bag or do a catheter. I opt for the less invasive bag - just can't stand the thought of doing another painful scary procedure - she has already had GI tests, cat scan, helmet fittings, hospital visits and next week has to do the allergy testing, plus all the regular shots and I just can't bring myself to do it. So we do the bag. Put in on and wait and wait and wait. After 90 minutes of no peeing, we look and it has come unattached and she had peed a bit in the diaper. Great. So I give in and say do the catheter. While we are waiting for them to set it all up (and mind you the bag is now off so she is naked) she has a HUGE pee all over me and the table. At that point I said we were leaving b/c I just was not putting her through a catheter when they just emptied her bladder. All this for a 15% chance of a urinary tract infection. So they said to go home, withhold fever meds and see what happens with the fever.
At 5:15 I took her temp and it is 104.2 (it has been steadily rising all day). So I gave her Motrin. It is almost her bedtime and I can't see putting her down so hot and uncomforable as she won't be able to sleep and I know the fever responds to Motrin. She is just an absolute wreck. Her cheeks are bright red, eyes sunken, face puffy, lips actually look a bit blue, her hands are cool to the touch but the rest of her is burining up. It makes me want to sob.
DH has been in England since Sunday night, won't be back till mid-day Saturday. He was in Germany the whole week three weeks ago when she landed in the ER with the stomach bug that has been going around. Not that he could do anything differently, but it would be nice not to always cope with these crisis alone.
I'm about the crack from feeling so helpless and frustrated. I suspect we'll be heading to the dr. tomorrow again (after going through the whole wait till the call-in time from 9 to 10 a.m. to get an appointment) and have to do the catheter probably to find out there is nothing to be done - I JUST CAN'T STAND THIS! The one thing about motherhood that I have been TERRIBLE at dealing with since day one is the fact that I cannot control things and feel so inept! It seriously makes me nuts to make all these visits to the dr/hospital that majorly traumatize DD only to be no where and just have her as miserable but more upsset. How do you all cope with these types of feelings?????
OK - this belonged in the Bitching Post b/c I'm just ranting and I know there is nothing you can do but it helps to get it off my chest a bit before I head into the bedtime routine and the long night of worrying, obessively checking her, rocking her when she wakes up crying and burning up etc. Thanks for listening to me if you made it this far! ARGH!
Holly
Mom to Mia (3.17.03)
I took today off work and took her into the ped. Of course I'd given her Motrin at 10 a.m. and we went in at 11:45 so the fever was down a bit tho she was congested. She has been to the dr. so much lately and after the ER visit where they stuck her 3 times to get blood, then gave her an IV, then about 6 people poked and prodded her, understandably she now loses it when we see any medical person.
We ended up with a male dr. today which makes it that much worse as she has developed extreme anxiety around strange men. So she is literally falling to pieces just screaming, hypervenilating, gagging during the exam, then they want a urine sample and tell me we can attach an adhesive bag or do a catheter. I opt for the less invasive bag - just can't stand the thought of doing another painful scary procedure - she has already had GI tests, cat scan, helmet fittings, hospital visits and next week has to do the allergy testing, plus all the regular shots and I just can't bring myself to do it. So we do the bag. Put in on and wait and wait and wait. After 90 minutes of no peeing, we look and it has come unattached and she had peed a bit in the diaper. Great. So I give in and say do the catheter. While we are waiting for them to set it all up (and mind you the bag is now off so she is naked) she has a HUGE pee all over me and the table. At that point I said we were leaving b/c I just was not putting her through a catheter when they just emptied her bladder. All this for a 15% chance of a urinary tract infection. So they said to go home, withhold fever meds and see what happens with the fever.
At 5:15 I took her temp and it is 104.2 (it has been steadily rising all day). So I gave her Motrin. It is almost her bedtime and I can't see putting her down so hot and uncomforable as she won't be able to sleep and I know the fever responds to Motrin. She is just an absolute wreck. Her cheeks are bright red, eyes sunken, face puffy, lips actually look a bit blue, her hands are cool to the touch but the rest of her is burining up. It makes me want to sob.
DH has been in England since Sunday night, won't be back till mid-day Saturday. He was in Germany the whole week three weeks ago when she landed in the ER with the stomach bug that has been going around. Not that he could do anything differently, but it would be nice not to always cope with these crisis alone.
I'm about the crack from feeling so helpless and frustrated. I suspect we'll be heading to the dr. tomorrow again (after going through the whole wait till the call-in time from 9 to 10 a.m. to get an appointment) and have to do the catheter probably to find out there is nothing to be done - I JUST CAN'T STAND THIS! The one thing about motherhood that I have been TERRIBLE at dealing with since day one is the fact that I cannot control things and feel so inept! It seriously makes me nuts to make all these visits to the dr/hospital that majorly traumatize DD only to be no where and just have her as miserable but more upsset. How do you all cope with these types of feelings?????
OK - this belonged in the Bitching Post b/c I'm just ranting and I know there is nothing you can do but it helps to get it off my chest a bit before I head into the bedtime routine and the long night of worrying, obessively checking her, rocking her when she wakes up crying and burning up etc. Thanks for listening to me if you made it this far! ARGH!
Holly
Mom to Mia (3.17.03)