One whole year

[Splash]

It's been one full year that we haven't seen our daughters. One year since they left our house and lives to be with their new parents. We were supposed to still see them, but that's not the way it worked.

Tomorrow is K's third birthday. Three years from the day that little imp came into our lives with her head of black hair and her sweet little soul. How much has she changed in the last year? What does her voice sound like?

Is T tying her shoes? Riding a two wheeler? Going to preschool?

I miss them so much. God how I miss them. Charlie is our little angel, but he can't replace the love that we gave to them in the 2+ years they were with us.

I know they're loved. I hope they're happy.

[buddyleebaby]

Oh, mama, huge hugs. I've wanted so many times to ask about them but didn't want to open any wounds.
You gave those girls love when they most needed it.

[elliput]

I am so very sorry to hear that you have not seen the girls. I had wondered several times what the situation was like. Have you not had any news regarding them? After two years of being in your care, I would have hoped someone would let you know how K & T are doing. :-( This makes me very sad.

[ChunkyNicksChunkyMom]

I hurt so for you and am so angry for you. Afraid time is not going to make this any easier. You deerve happy endings more than any other mama here. You are an inspiration.
Susan

#1 Nick 11-18-04
#2 Kate 04-26-06

[karolyp]

Same here.

Everytime you post I want to ask how they are doing and if you still keep in touch, but I just couldn't.

I am so so so sorry to see that it didn't work out that way. Huge hugs and much love your way.

[Jenn98]

I'm so sorry for your pain. I know you will always miss your girls. And I'm so happy that those two wonderful girls spent that time with you, even if it was cut short. It's clear how much you loved them, and a loving, safe home is the most wonderful thing you could ever give a child.

(((((HUGS))))

[o_mom]

I am so sorry it has been this way. I get angry every time I think about it and it comes up frequently as our state wants to be just like your state. :-( People here don't think about the consequences of what they are proposing.

I hope you can find healing.

[mamato1]

I can't imagine the pain you are going through. I was new here when you were originally posting about your situation and I remember the anger I felt at such a ridiculous system that would take those babies from you. I am struggling to find some words that might provide you some comfort, but know that there are none. My thoughts are with you.

Chris

Mama to Brendan (aka Boomer) 01/04


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[mariza]

I've often too wondered if you were able to maintain a relationship with the girls. I'm sorry it hasn't worked out the way you planned, I'm sure your girls think about you often. Hugs to you and DP!

[sidmand]

I'm so sorry to hear you haven't seen the girls. I was so hoping that that wouldn't be the case. And even though it was so difficult for them to leave, you would be able to maintain some relationship with them. I'm just so sorry. No other words to say.

Debbie
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[Saartje]

Estelle, I am so sorry. I'd been thinking about this lately, and I'm always torn between tears and rage on your behalf — and on behalf of the girls.

[DebbieJ]

Wow, it's been a year already?

Big big hugs to you tonight (((HUGS)))

~ deb
DS born at home 12/03
2 year check up: 25 lbs with clothes on and 35 inches!
BFARed for 20 months and 6 days
(Breastfeeding After Reduction is possible! www.bfar.org)

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[Lovingliv]

Everytime I see a post from you, I wonder about the girls. I am sorry that it happened this way.
Big hugs!

[ismommy]

I am so sorry. I remember your post a year ago and was hoping it would turn out differently.
Helene
mommy to Isabella
and Gunner

[KBecks]

Is it possible to drop a note or phone call to the parents to say hi? Of course, I don't know the rules and all that. I know toddler life is busy and kepeing in touch with people is especially hard and often just falls to the very bottom of the to-do list.

Then again, I also imagine it takes a while for adoptive parents to feel completely secure in their new roles.

I hope you hear something, but if you don't, take heart in the tremendous gift you gave to the girls and your precious memories of them.

[jd11365]

I just can't imagine. I wish it had turned out differently for you. I'm so sorry.

[jd11365]

I just can't imagine. I wish it had turned out differently for you. I'm so sorry.

[Rachels]

I've thought of you so often and am especially thinking of you today. I'm so incredibly sorry.

-Rachel
Mama to Abigail Rose
5/18/02
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Nursed for three years!

and Ethan James
10/19/05
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"When you know better, you do better."
Maya

[Rachels]

I've thought of you so often and am especially thinking of you today. I'm so incredibly sorry.

-Rachel
Mama to Abigail Rose
5/18/02
http://www.gynosaur.com/assets/ribbons/ribbon_amethyst_36m.gif
Nursed for three years!

and Ethan James
10/19/05
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"When you know better, you do better."
Maya

[purpleeyes]

>>You are an inspiration.


ITA. Thinking of you and the girls! I hope you will have some time with them soon.


Beth

[purpleeyes]

>>You are an inspiration.


ITA. Thinking of you and the girls! I hope you will have some time with them soon.


Beth

[mamicka]

I'm so sorry. You've suffered such a terrible loss, you & the girls. I hope that they are thriving & you eventually have contact again.

Hugs & prayers for you.

Allison

[mamicka]

I'm so sorry. You've suffered such a terrible loss, you & the girls. I hope that they are thriving & you eventually have contact again.

Hugs & prayers for you.

Allison

[alleyoop]

I'm so sorry! Thinking of you and your partner today...as I am sure the girls do often.

[alleyoop]

I'm so sorry! Thinking of you and your partner today...as I am sure the girls do often.

[ErinMC]

ITA. So sorry for the both of you.

Erin

Mom to Chase Feb. 04
... and Baby Logan! May 20, 2006

[ErinMC]

ITA. So sorry for the both of you.

Erin

Mom to Chase Feb. 04
... and Baby Logan! May 20, 2006