liya
10-24-2003, 02:04 PM
Today i saw a show on Maury about overweight ppl achieving their weight goals. Of course i know that some of the ppl there had the "surgery" done but still it got me very sad and depressed. Ever since the ectopic pregnancy i put on an aditional 15 pds making the total weight for me to loose a whooping 50pds..To me thats like having another body inside me, its like having a little kid inside my body. I was washing my cousins clothes staring and her tiny little waist and thighs. I mean gals i cant fit one of my thighs into her whole pant..Well today after the show i started thinking. Thinking of so many ppl tha thave lost alot more weight than i have the natural way. Eating right, excersizing and mantaining good patterns all throughout their lives. I realized i dont want to get to be 30 and weigh what i weigh now. I want to be slim wear my cool funky clothes and be young once again. Right now i feel like im stuck in a body and a life that isnt mine. I just to be a sexual animal...(LOL i really dont care who reads this) but right now i dont feel comfortable enough with myself to show off my body to my husband not even in a bathing suite. I am tiered of being ashamed of taking pictures with my son and being ashamed of my body. Today has been my breaking point into reality and i am thankfull i have reached it.
I decided to write these word down as a written contract to myself and my buddy. I am giving myself one year to reach my goal weight and to mantain it for the rest of my life. I herby declare that i will be there for myself and for my buddy. That i will begin my diet on Nov 1st 2003 with my buddy and that i will do excersizes 3 times a week in the begining for 30min and increase the days or times as my body allows it to. That i will loose 50 pds by november 2004 and that i will stik to my healthy lifestyle for the rest of my life because i want the possibility of having another child and with PCOS it is hard if your weight is not in check.
To my buddy: i will be available to you at any time. We are dealing with similar situations and i would love for you and me to have sucess stories together. So therefore i comit to helping you when you feel unmotivated and up your spirits when they are down so you wont fall into bad eating habits. And hopefully from you i will get the same support.
Thanks for listening i just needed to vent this out ...
I decided to write these word down as a written contract to myself and my buddy. I am giving myself one year to reach my goal weight and to mantain it for the rest of my life. I herby declare that i will be there for myself and for my buddy. That i will begin my diet on Nov 1st 2003 with my buddy and that i will do excersizes 3 times a week in the begining for 30min and increase the days or times as my body allows it to. That i will loose 50 pds by november 2004 and that i will stik to my healthy lifestyle for the rest of my life because i want the possibility of having another child and with PCOS it is hard if your weight is not in check.
To my buddy: i will be available to you at any time. We are dealing with similar situations and i would love for you and me to have sucess stories together. So therefore i comit to helping you when you feel unmotivated and up your spirits when they are down so you wont fall into bad eating habits. And hopefully from you i will get the same support.
Thanks for listening i just needed to vent this out ...