shilo
05-20-2008, 03:03 AM
AAHHHHHH!!! can i say it again? AHHHHHHHHHHH! this is long, you don't have to read it, but i just have to get this OUT of my system.
so i know there is another post going right now about weight and pregnancy over here, but i don't want to hijack. this is just a selfish b!tch and i know there are a lot worse things going on in the world, but this just sucks for me today!
i went to my regular monthly OB visit today and was essentially told that i'm not gaining enough weight. excuse me? you're talking to moi? me who has struggled with her weight since the age of 12 and hit puberty, you're telling ME i need to gain more before my next appointment? me, who you've been counseling to get to a more healthy weight since i became your patient 7 years ago and which i finally basically did prior to this pregnancy? ME? really? AHHHHHHHH! how is this fair?
i'm doing everything i did with sam's pregnancy that i did right last time - eating nutritiously and to hunger (which is actually MORE food this time) - AND what they kept telling me to do last time that i didn't - exercising regularly. last time it was "you better slow down or you're going to wind up with gest. diabetes". this time it's "you know, you really don't need to be so careful - if you don't start gaining a little more between visits we're going to be worried about it." i swear i'm not over-exercising. i'm a PT by profession. i grock exercise physiology. i'm religiously careful about monitoring my HR and passing my perceived rate of exertion and talk tests during my workouts while pregnant and have slowed down considerably as the weeks have gone on. my spin (indoor cycling) classes are more like joy rides than sweat and exercise at this point.
i guess i'm just struggling with feeling like it's so unfair. last time, with sam's pregnancy, i remember struggling so much with the early weight gain (i started his pregnancy with twins thru the 1st tri), and by the end of the second tri, it just slowed down on it's own to where i ended up in the 'official' record at about a 25lb gain (closer to 30 if you count the weight before they started counting at my first 'official' visit). but i was a solid 35-40lbs overweight before that pregnancy. this time around, i was down to about only 10lbs overweight before pregnancy, but the weight just seems to be coming on more slowly. i'm gaining, just apparently not enough.
of course i don't want to do anything to endanger the baby! of course i'll try and force myself to eat more/exercise less if that's what i need to do. but i kinda feel like i just want to let my body be. it's telling me i'm doing the right things - it's just the scale that's giving me a big :p. i won't even go into my parents comments on the subject - i've finally come to peace in my 30's with waving the white flag to that one and letting it go.
sigh. thanks for listening if you got thru my mess of a post.
lori
so i know there is another post going right now about weight and pregnancy over here, but i don't want to hijack. this is just a selfish b!tch and i know there are a lot worse things going on in the world, but this just sucks for me today!
i went to my regular monthly OB visit today and was essentially told that i'm not gaining enough weight. excuse me? you're talking to moi? me who has struggled with her weight since the age of 12 and hit puberty, you're telling ME i need to gain more before my next appointment? me, who you've been counseling to get to a more healthy weight since i became your patient 7 years ago and which i finally basically did prior to this pregnancy? ME? really? AHHHHHHHH! how is this fair?
i'm doing everything i did with sam's pregnancy that i did right last time - eating nutritiously and to hunger (which is actually MORE food this time) - AND what they kept telling me to do last time that i didn't - exercising regularly. last time it was "you better slow down or you're going to wind up with gest. diabetes". this time it's "you know, you really don't need to be so careful - if you don't start gaining a little more between visits we're going to be worried about it." i swear i'm not over-exercising. i'm a PT by profession. i grock exercise physiology. i'm religiously careful about monitoring my HR and passing my perceived rate of exertion and talk tests during my workouts while pregnant and have slowed down considerably as the weeks have gone on. my spin (indoor cycling) classes are more like joy rides than sweat and exercise at this point.
i guess i'm just struggling with feeling like it's so unfair. last time, with sam's pregnancy, i remember struggling so much with the early weight gain (i started his pregnancy with twins thru the 1st tri), and by the end of the second tri, it just slowed down on it's own to where i ended up in the 'official' record at about a 25lb gain (closer to 30 if you count the weight before they started counting at my first 'official' visit). but i was a solid 35-40lbs overweight before that pregnancy. this time around, i was down to about only 10lbs overweight before pregnancy, but the weight just seems to be coming on more slowly. i'm gaining, just apparently not enough.
of course i don't want to do anything to endanger the baby! of course i'll try and force myself to eat more/exercise less if that's what i need to do. but i kinda feel like i just want to let my body be. it's telling me i'm doing the right things - it's just the scale that's giving me a big :p. i won't even go into my parents comments on the subject - i've finally come to peace in my 30's with waving the white flag to that one and letting it go.
sigh. thanks for listening if you got thru my mess of a post.
lori