npace19147
08-01-2008, 10:29 PM
DH and I just had a big fight and I'm venting here, so bear with me...
I'm going through another round of depression, I think. I feel so isolated and lonely away for the summer, I don't know anyone to hang out with and people are friendly but have their own things going on. DD1 is in camp every day until 1pm but it is a long day with no scheduled plans in the afternoon, and during the week when DH isn't here and it's all me until they go to bed - I'm having a tough time with it, esp. with DD1 b/c she's very smart and defiant. I think in a totally normal development way for her age, but it's still hard. I feel like all I do is bribe and threaten.
I'm at the point of feeling like all I can do is keep up with the bare minimum - pick up and drop off, basic meals like mac n cheese, some trips to the pool but a lot of tv, etc. Definitely going downhill this week (and I think my b-day didn't help).
Anyway, DH came up on Thursday night and I was so happy to see him. But then he starts in with the "the house is a mess" "why aren't you eating salad" "have you found a babysitter yet" stuff. And I blew up at him this morning, told him I was sliding into another depression and I needed him to give me emotional support, not try to find solutions to my problems. We were mad at each other all day, sat down tonight to try to resolve it. And I told him that it's not the solutions, those aren't rocket science, yes I know I need to pick up the house and make some phone calls and dump out some precut lettuce. The problem is the complete lack of energy and interest to do those simple things. And he just doesn't get it. Never has, never will. Thinks I should just be able to shake it off and get over it.
It makes me so mad and frustrated. I told him I need hugs and support, not solutions, and he said it sounds to him like I want to wallow in it instead of trying to fix it and get over it. I asked him if he would just tell his mother to get over being diabetic, but he doesn't see the analogy.
So we're still mad at each other. I feel so sad, this is such a big thing for me and he's the most important person in my life and knowing that not only does he not get it, he's making no effort to get it and will not make any effort just makes me feel so rejected. Which is not helping with feeling depressed.
I have been in therapy for years and am on meds now which help, but I still have flareups. DH has been to my therapist with me but it hasn't helped his perspective.
Anyone have any suggestions on how to communicate with my DH? TIA if you've made it this far!
I'm going through another round of depression, I think. I feel so isolated and lonely away for the summer, I don't know anyone to hang out with and people are friendly but have their own things going on. DD1 is in camp every day until 1pm but it is a long day with no scheduled plans in the afternoon, and during the week when DH isn't here and it's all me until they go to bed - I'm having a tough time with it, esp. with DD1 b/c she's very smart and defiant. I think in a totally normal development way for her age, but it's still hard. I feel like all I do is bribe and threaten.
I'm at the point of feeling like all I can do is keep up with the bare minimum - pick up and drop off, basic meals like mac n cheese, some trips to the pool but a lot of tv, etc. Definitely going downhill this week (and I think my b-day didn't help).
Anyway, DH came up on Thursday night and I was so happy to see him. But then he starts in with the "the house is a mess" "why aren't you eating salad" "have you found a babysitter yet" stuff. And I blew up at him this morning, told him I was sliding into another depression and I needed him to give me emotional support, not try to find solutions to my problems. We were mad at each other all day, sat down tonight to try to resolve it. And I told him that it's not the solutions, those aren't rocket science, yes I know I need to pick up the house and make some phone calls and dump out some precut lettuce. The problem is the complete lack of energy and interest to do those simple things. And he just doesn't get it. Never has, never will. Thinks I should just be able to shake it off and get over it.
It makes me so mad and frustrated. I told him I need hugs and support, not solutions, and he said it sounds to him like I want to wallow in it instead of trying to fix it and get over it. I asked him if he would just tell his mother to get over being diabetic, but he doesn't see the analogy.
So we're still mad at each other. I feel so sad, this is such a big thing for me and he's the most important person in my life and knowing that not only does he not get it, he's making no effort to get it and will not make any effort just makes me feel so rejected. Which is not helping with feeling depressed.
I have been in therapy for years and am on meds now which help, but I still have flareups. DH has been to my therapist with me but it hasn't helped his perspective.
Anyone have any suggestions on how to communicate with my DH? TIA if you've made it this far!