cimberdog
08-21-2008, 04:51 PM
I am just feeling so frustrated right now. I have a group of friends and we are part of a different online community where we keep journals. I work so hard to make sure I pop in and say hello to everyone, or say more, and it really hurts my feelings that in some cases, others can't even be bothered to stop by my journal and say hello. Especially when I see they have gone to all our other friends' journals and not mine. I feel like something is going on, but I don't want to say anything because I am already feeling a little rejected.
All my life I have been nearly alone - I have no dad in my life, no siblings, and it's just harder for me to be outgoing with people because I am extremely sensitive and my feelings are easily hurt (still working on this issue from childhood).
I guess I just needed to vent. I've thrown a huge baby shower and spent over $200 on one friend. Another, I made a quilt for her baby that was very significant, as she suffered a 40 week loss. That same friend - I donated to her charity walk, light candles on her son's memorial site, and I get nothing in return. I have no idea where I could have gone wrong.
But worst of all, I feel for my children. I am feeling so sensitive and sad about this that I don't even feel like I can branch out and get to know other parents without fearing rejection :(
Thanks for reading. Just had to get that off my chest.
All my life I have been nearly alone - I have no dad in my life, no siblings, and it's just harder for me to be outgoing with people because I am extremely sensitive and my feelings are easily hurt (still working on this issue from childhood).
I guess I just needed to vent. I've thrown a huge baby shower and spent over $200 on one friend. Another, I made a quilt for her baby that was very significant, as she suffered a 40 week loss. That same friend - I donated to her charity walk, light candles on her son's memorial site, and I get nothing in return. I have no idea where I could have gone wrong.
But worst of all, I feel for my children. I am feeling so sensitive and sad about this that I don't even feel like I can branch out and get to know other parents without fearing rejection :(
Thanks for reading. Just had to get that off my chest.