Worried about myself for a change !

[TraciG]

I am so sleep deprived & getting depressed & anxious about my DS sleeping, I'm at a breaking point. Year's ago I took meds for anxiety, I think I need to start taking them or something again. I am alway's impatient, worried, tired. My life is about worrying about Jacob's sleep because it's become so terrible. After he had a cough everything went down hill because then he had a hard time sleeping, he'd wake up with almost every cough so I was comfort nursing & rocking ( same time ) then putting him in asleep, well now he seem's to have forgotten how to fall asleep on his own.

The WORST is in the middle of the night about 2:30 or later after a bottle he cannot fall back to sleep, after over an hour & handed him over to my dh, then I found some med's that I have not taken in year's , I took a little more then half, & went back to sleep, I am still groggy.

I am starting to get stomach pain's that I haven't had in year's, can cry easy just not very happy these day's & always snapping at DD ( so unfair ) if we could just sleep I think I'd be so much better, it is taking a MAJOR toll on me !

I don't even have a regular Dr. I think I need to find one plus I have a bad skin condition on my hand that is killing me, make's it hard bathing the kid's, that add's to my happiness !

[SnuggleBuggles]

I hope you can get an appointment soon.

I know you are worried about him getting enough sleep and being miserably sleep deprived but I think your battle and stress over his sleep is a bit hard for you and him. I bet he doesn't feel as bad as you think he does. He doesn't know that he is supposed to be sleeping straight through or anything like that. Try for a few days just following his lead, even if it isn't what you would want for either of you and just relax. It sounds like you might need to take the meds again to get to that point where you can relax about it.

((((Hugs))))

Beth

[egoldber]

I would definitely try and talk to someone. That sounds very hard to live with.

If it makes you feel any better, Amy never got the sleep memo either. And she's a growing, happy, healthy toddler with more energy than you could imagine and ahead in every milestone!!

[TraciG]

Thanks , my DH is going away next Wednesday until Monday morning so my mother is coming here to help , so of course I'm worried about Jacob waking up her all night !

I HATE WORRYING I WISH WISH WISH I didn't do it so much ! People tell you not to worry, it's not something that I WANT to do but can help it ! I have been this way forever, I remeber in elementary school being called a worry wort ! THANK GOD Sydney isn't like that I hope DS isn't either !

I think this is happening to me because I'm not sleeping enough at all.

Can you believe I TRIED to go back to sleep ( Jacob is napping now ) I NEVER do this & the one time I do my buzzer in the apt goes off, someone said I have a package, so I'm sitting here waiting, they never came up. I'm afraid to go back to bed because if they buzz again ( so loud ) it can wake up Jacob.

I just have no luck

should really shower

[lizajane]

please, please, please get some help!!! not just a doctor, a psychatrist and counselor. i truly think one should see a mental health specialist for mental health meds- it makes a big difference. and i truly benefit from my therapist and i feel confident that you would, too. the constant worry is clearly interfering with your everyday life and it shouldn't have to.

i am so sorry you are going through these challenges. HUGS.:hug:

[ECMom]

Traci,

It is wonderful that you remember how medication helped you before. Don't hestitate to see a doctor. If you regularly see a GYN, give him/her a call. He/She could prescribe med or recommend someone for you to see. I stopped my med when I found out I was pregnant with my 1st and then tried to stay off them after he was born. I did and it was a struggle. Subconciously I knew it was the wrong thing to do but I did so anyway. Several years later I started taking them again. When I got pregnant with my 2nd, I stayed on them. My OB didn't even consider asking me not too. My 2nd is 3 months now and I'm definitely more relaxed and not edgey like I was before (both kids had/have sleep issues).

As for your Mom, don't worry about waking her up. She's coming to help you out so let her do so. My Mom was recently here for 3 weeks and my DD's crys for feedings did not wake her up. Don't forget to take naps while you Mom is there!

[LBW]

If your mom is coming to help, hand Jacob over to her after Sydney is in bed, go into your bedroom, shut the door, and try to sleep. Put on a white noise machine or fan to help drown out any noises. You will feel so much better if you just get a good night's sleep without interruption. Does Jacob have a crib or pack and play that he can sleep in? If so, move it out of your room so that your mom can put him in it.

I think co-sleeping is great, when it works. It honestly does not sound like it is working for you. Neither of you is getting a decent amount of sleep.

I'm sorry you are dealing with this. My 9-month old is a terrible sleeper, so I know exactly how you are feeling. I have days where I just don't think I can take it anymore. Even when my baby does sleep for 2-3 hours at night I'm up all night worrying about bills, appointments, and my other two boys. But, I do know that eventually they do sleep better! I'm just taking it one day at a time.

[mommy111]

No advise, just hugs and I hope things get better for you soon!

[maestramommy]

I agree with everything Liza said. I also want to say it's probably not a good idea to take the meds that are years old. You really need to talk this over in detail with your OB or PCP, ask for a referral for a psychiatrist.

:hug::hug:I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time.

[pinkmomagain]

I know that some may not agree, but I am a big advocate of "sleep above all else"....including bad habits. What I mean is that if my babies/kids were up in the middle of the night, I would pull them into bed with me, or go into their beds -- and we would both go back to sleep. Really, this has helped keep me sane. My two oldest are no worse for the wear...they obviously sleep on their own at this point (12 and 9 yo!). My almost 3 yo wakes up most nights at some point and I crawl into bed with her and we fall back asleep.

And of course, ITA with all the pps about meds/dr etc. You need to take care of yourself!!!!

[TraciG]

Thanks everyone, I THINK when DS sleep improves & I can sleep I will feel much better , that is what the stress right now is from.

Meanwhile he slept pretty good last night & woke up at 6 around here that's like the afternoon ! I was hoping my DH would get up & let me sleep a little but his response was I can't even open up my eye's !

[mytwosons]

I've found a foot to the @ss shoving him out of bed quickly opens the eyes.

Seriously, your husband needs to help out.

[Tondi G]

I've found a foot to the @ss shoving him out of bed quickly opens the eyes.

Seriously, your husband needs to help out.

I agree with this!!!!

HUGS mama! Having been through severe anxiety after my 2nd was born I wouldn't wish that on anyone. Call your OB/Gyn they should be able to either prescribe something for you and give you a referral for a doctor who can/will!!!! If you were diabetic you wouldn't hesitate to take the meds you need... don't feel bad about needing something for your mental health!!!! A happy mama makes for a happy family. I hope you get some much needed rest and that your mom truly HELPS you while your DH is away!!!!

Hang in there!

~Tondi

[Nooknookmom]

I'm so sorry (hugs) that you are feeling so cruddy. My 16 mo old never got that ill fated sleeping memo either and it's been almost 1.5 years!

2 nights ago she woke up *8* times. OMG was I a friggin mess the next day. Screamed at older DD, yelled at people in cars, DH thought I was crazy. Not sleeping really takes it's toll on you.

Talk to your Dr. I recently took anti-anxiety meds for something else & noticed that not only did it help that situation but I actually went back to sleep in between DD's fits & I was NOT as nuts the next day. Going to talk to my Dr. this week about it.

HTH & I hope you feel better soon!