Mom to Brandon and 2 cats
11-15-2013, 02:48 PM
A little background:
Two years ago, I took a job closer to home, but outside of my work comfort zone. 99% of my previous job experience was focused on one "arm" of civil engineering (land development). The new job is focused on the other "arm" of civil engineering (capital projects design management).
In my current job, there's not much guidance to be found. Processes and procedures are not written down. There's a lot of complaining from the folks managing the construction about the quality of the design (which is what I do). The management has completely turned over in the past 3 years. My immediate supervisor has no background in what I do and is not helpful.
I've been running into problems (some little, some big), and am not handling it well. I've been beating up on myself (because hindsight is 20/20), and it's not productive. I'm feeling depressed, and not wanting to come into work.
I think the problem was that in my past positions, I was in a position to positively know what I was doing most of the time, and was successful. Here, I feel criticized and am sorely lacking in self confidence.
Does anybody have any advice on how to gain my self confidence back? Every once in awhile, I'll get kudos for something gone right, but then it seems like immediately thereafter, something else goes wrong, and they 'cancel' each other out. There's definitely more wrongs than rights. Or maybe it just seems that way. Rights are not really celebrated around here.
Help, advice, appreciated.
--Jennifer
Two years ago, I took a job closer to home, but outside of my work comfort zone. 99% of my previous job experience was focused on one "arm" of civil engineering (land development). The new job is focused on the other "arm" of civil engineering (capital projects design management).
In my current job, there's not much guidance to be found. Processes and procedures are not written down. There's a lot of complaining from the folks managing the construction about the quality of the design (which is what I do). The management has completely turned over in the past 3 years. My immediate supervisor has no background in what I do and is not helpful.
I've been running into problems (some little, some big), and am not handling it well. I've been beating up on myself (because hindsight is 20/20), and it's not productive. I'm feeling depressed, and not wanting to come into work.
I think the problem was that in my past positions, I was in a position to positively know what I was doing most of the time, and was successful. Here, I feel criticized and am sorely lacking in self confidence.
Does anybody have any advice on how to gain my self confidence back? Every once in awhile, I'll get kudos for something gone right, but then it seems like immediately thereafter, something else goes wrong, and they 'cancel' each other out. There's definitely more wrongs than rights. Or maybe it just seems that way. Rights are not really celebrated around here.
Help, advice, appreciated.
--Jennifer