doberbrat
02-25-2023, 10:58 PM
I'd been looking forward to this week's vacation as I've been overwhelmed by many things - including Princess my 16+ yo cocker being super sick.
Friday - many calls from my aunts b/c my mom isn't doing well and what am I going to do about it.
Sunday - my mom fell at my aunt M's house and refuses to go to er.
Monday calls from my aunts mom is in icu with covid - got taken there from dialysis by ambulance bc she was sick (so the center folks have been exposed)
Tue my bday - no one other than my kids remembered. dh sleeps till 4pm then gets up and says he's going to grocery store to get a cake for me and dinner fixings. Nope. I'd like to eat tonight - I go myself. Aunt M calls me -livid. My mom called her and thanked her for Giving HER covid.
Wed dentist to get 2 fillings. Aunt M has covid and is really sick.
Th had to drive during an ice storm bc my dr called - the blood work I had last week was not good and she wants an immediate repeat. Get home to find out a good friend with 3 young kids died of breast cancer. I am gutted.
Fri took Princess to the vet -alone bc dh cant be bothered to get up and dd2 is too upset by her friend's mom dying. Spend more than I bring home in a week to find its stage 4 kidney disease. Given her age, I have her pts.
Sat - I realize that somehow, I've forgotten to get Teddy his latest rabies shot. He needs it immediately and he's going to need a bunch of blood work b/c he too is looking thin and is drinking more water. I finally talk to my mom who is still in the hospital - she's still insisting she can live alone. and is not really lucid. I really am going to have to figure out how to force her into a nursing home - and I truly have zero bandwidth for it.
There's more that is too personal to post. I know others have it worse, (like my friend's widow and kids) but I've been under a lot of stress for a long time and I'm starting to buckle. I want a redo on large parts of my life!
Friday - many calls from my aunts b/c my mom isn't doing well and what am I going to do about it.
Sunday - my mom fell at my aunt M's house and refuses to go to er.
Monday calls from my aunts mom is in icu with covid - got taken there from dialysis by ambulance bc she was sick (so the center folks have been exposed)
Tue my bday - no one other than my kids remembered. dh sleeps till 4pm then gets up and says he's going to grocery store to get a cake for me and dinner fixings. Nope. I'd like to eat tonight - I go myself. Aunt M calls me -livid. My mom called her and thanked her for Giving HER covid.
Wed dentist to get 2 fillings. Aunt M has covid and is really sick.
Th had to drive during an ice storm bc my dr called - the blood work I had last week was not good and she wants an immediate repeat. Get home to find out a good friend with 3 young kids died of breast cancer. I am gutted.
Fri took Princess to the vet -alone bc dh cant be bothered to get up and dd2 is too upset by her friend's mom dying. Spend more than I bring home in a week to find its stage 4 kidney disease. Given her age, I have her pts.
Sat - I realize that somehow, I've forgotten to get Teddy his latest rabies shot. He needs it immediately and he's going to need a bunch of blood work b/c he too is looking thin and is drinking more water. I finally talk to my mom who is still in the hospital - she's still insisting she can live alone. and is not really lucid. I really am going to have to figure out how to force her into a nursing home - and I truly have zero bandwidth for it.
There's more that is too personal to post. I know others have it worse, (like my friend's widow and kids) but I've been under a lot of stress for a long time and I'm starting to buckle. I want a redo on large parts of my life!