RE: what am i doing!!!!!!!!!!
Becky-
I am concerned about you and want to give you a big hug right now. It sounds to me like you are having major anxiety issues. A physician, therapist, and even some prescription medications could do a lot to help. Do you have a doctor you can call to talk to and see?
About the letter, I know writing letters like that can be quite cathartic. Many people suggest writing them to get thoughts and feelings off your chest and then ripping them up. The thoughts are out in the universe whether you hear back from him or not. It's not unhealthy to write out your feelings. Have you already mailed the letter?
The only healthful way to lose weight is through diet and exercise. Please start eating healthfully and take each day as it comes. You look great, Mama, take care of yourself.
Fancy Nancy 8/04
Snuggle Puppy 5/07
"You know, you really wear me out. But I love you anyway."