RE: Sometimes I hate this kind of motivation...
I've been there too. My moment of breakthrough came on a ski trip in 2001. I had never been skiing before and was really excited to try. I had a really difficult time on the slopes and twisted my knee. When I got home and saw the photos from the trip it sent me over the edge. The way I looked combined with my physical difficulties sent me looking for something to help get the weight off. My sister was also engaged at the time to be married in 6 months so I had those photos coming up too. So I know exactly what you mean!
My Mom had been doing WW for a few months and was having great success so I thought I'd give it a try. It took me a year to loose 50 pounds and reach my goal weight. I felt awesome! Even when I was 9 months pregnant I was not as heavy as I was at my first WW meeting. Another plus during that time was my sister broke her engagement and lost that looser! My Mom did great too though she is in weight loss mode right now but I know she will get back to goal.
Maybe this is the turning point you need? I let myself get heavier and heavier for years before doing something. I self medicated with food because I was unhappy with so many things in my life. This was before my two boys.
Kath, you sound so ready to make this change. Find the lifestyle that is right for you and go for it!
Michelle I
DS 1 - 7
DS 2 - 5
DD - 1