DH and I are 95% sure we are going to pursue adopting at this time. I can't believe it. I am so happy and excited I wanted to share with all of you because I know you would understand. I feel like God has really led me to this decision and basically hit me over the head with a hammer (believe me, this is usually the case with me anyway!). DH and I have always thought about adopting a child, long before we even knew I had reproductive issues. It was something we discussed before we were even married. It has always been in our hearts.
The past year has been a challenging one for us. We have made several attempts to conceive to no avail. I swear to you that with every failed attempt, I feel more and more that it is not what we should be doing. I think about adopting all the time. I read all the blogs you ladies post links to. I live vicariously through your experiences and feel like we, too, have another child in the world, waiting for us to come and get them. It is amazing to have this feeling.
I have thought long and hard about where our child would be. I feel like Goldilocks in a way. I looked into several countries I was interested in but have always come back again and again to one. So I think DH and I are going to China.
I am nervous, elated, excited, apprehensive...but mostly filled with a sense of direction and love. I love my family so much and it makes me so happy to know that we will be adding one more to our crazy yet very happy bunch. I love my DH and DS so much. But I know there is at least one more member out there.
I ask you to keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we finalize our decisions over the upcoming weeks. I am glad that I can turn to all of you here for support and information. But more so, I am happy that I will have the opportunity to join you all in bringing another child into our lives and our BBB community.