I want to cry. Having DS evaluated for Aspergers again.

[daisymommy]

The last 2-3 months have been hellacious with DS#1. It got even worse on the holiday break. Now I know what the poor teachers have been dealing with.

He already has a diagnoses of ADHD and SPD. He was evaluated for Aspergers when he was younger, was given a "wait and see" approach, and we all thought he was aging out of the more worrisome behaviors, and things were looking better. The Aspergers diagnoses was taken of the table/list of concerns about 2 years ago.

But now, I can see it, clear as day in my opinion. And I'm so sad, scared, frustrated and angry. I'm tired of the ongoing problems that never seem to end.
I'm sad that I can't give more to my other children who get less attention because he sucks up so much of it. And I'm worried about needing more of myself to give when the baby arrives.

It's mentally and emotionally tiring of always judging my parenting success based upon how he is acting and doing. That's really short-changing myself, since my other two children are angels, and doing positively wonderful. It's hard to remember that when I feel like I'm failing with one child. And then to remind myself that *I* am not failing--he is just a very difficult child with SN, and I do not have total control over that. Its not my fault.

I made an ASAP appointment with his Ped. for tommorrow, to get a recc for a specialist. I don't think his current doctor is going to cut it for the evaluations & therapy I want done.

Sigh. I needed to vent. And I need P&PT.

[Twoboos]

Many P&PT for you!! You can get through this - you have already taken a first step by calling the ped.

HUGS!!

[g-mama]

I know it must be really, really hard. You are doing a great job. Hugs to you .

[DietCokeLover]

You're right, this is not your fault. You are a great mom who is facing a challenging situation. Hang in there, we are here for you.

[sidmand]

Hugs to you. I hope you get some answers soon.

[DrSally]

I nope ypu get answers soon. Try not to blame yourself. Sending hugs.

[wellyes]

Oh, I'm so sorry. Hope you find the answers. P & PT for sure.

[JTsMom]

It's not your fault. You are an amazing mom.

It's not your fault. You are an amazing mom.

It's not your fault. You are an amazing mom.

(Three times, but imagine it times 1000).


You know the fact that it's that really trying time of year, and I'm sure that pregnancy isn't making it much easier can only be adding on to it too. Do what you've got to do to get through the next couple of weeks, and be nice to yourself. We're here for you.

[daisymommy]

Thanks gals.

[Gena]

Hugs. It can be really hard to let go of that sense of guilt, even when you intellectually know that it's not your fault.

Holiday breaks are really difficult for a lot of SN kids, especially those that thrive on routine. It's been challenging for us too.

I hope things go well at the appointment tomorrow. P&PT