My marriage is over.
That is to say, it was over long ago. I realized it six months ago when I found out he was cheating.. but I still wanted to fix things. Tonight he confessed to another emotional affair that happened before the others.
And I'm done.
I'm so scared, though. I have no idea how I will support my children. I've applied for public housing, but it will be at least six months, and that's extremely hopeful. Many lists in this area are years long, or simply closed. My parents' house will be foreclosed upon in another two, maybe three months. What am I supposed to do with that gap? We only have one car, and it's in his name. Does he take it, or do I? I suppose he could buy a little cheap car.. we have $10k in a savings account that we were going to use to take the kids to Disney next January. The logistics are just.. mind boggling. Not to mention how we will go about breaking the news to our kids, and the fallout that will come from him leaving.
I'm just.. devastated. I have nobody that I can go to for support. Nobody whose shoulder I can cry on. How am I going to manage this?