I have started to post this so many times and then talk myself out of it. I have been told many times in my life that I am "too sensitive." Whatever.
Friend #1
I adored this woman. We have been friends for about 5 years and at times were very, very close. I don't really know what her deal is, but I worked up the nerve to talk to her in the fall about my hurt feelings. It was one of the hardest relationship talks I have had in a long time and I was only able to do it because I wanted to preserve our friendship. She swore up and down I was misreading things, swore she adored and cared about us, etc. etc. I was so relieved and now, months later, we are right back to bad. I am sad, but I guess I mourned this loss in the fall. Now I am just disappointed.
Our friendship started when my father had just died, my husband was just starting out and making a low salary, and we both SAH. I went back to work, DH became a partner, and she is insistent that she continue to SAH though money is a gruesome issue. She is a lawyer, but won't consider work until her daughter is in high school. She often says it is "about values" and her decision to "be there for her daughter--that is my #1 job." I have gotten her a lot of work as a sub and other things at my school and honestly I half think she is only friendly because of this. Get togethers are almost exclusively her house, her terms....just makes me sad. I feel as though she liked me when she was in control, but is less interested in a relationship between equals. KWIM? You have no idea how much I enjoyed my friendship with this woman. I just don't have control here and I have to accept that. I won't work at a friendship that is not equally valued by the other party.
The other friendship is not much that. It is a woman I have known for a long time. She went through a divorce and if you knew how much I listened and supported. Her daughter now goes to a G&T school while her son is at my children's school in the preK (where we met). All I hear is how bad my kids' school is and how glad she is that her kids don't have to go there. Really? Do I have to listen to this? SHe told me her daughter lost a something I had given her that had become a favorite. I emailed back and said she could have my daughter's item (the same). She did not answer my email. When I saw her the next day and started to ask if she could watch my kids for 1 minute until the school doors opened (she needed to wait there with her child) because I had an exceptionally tight morning, she said NO before I finished my sentence. She must have seen it on my face because she then said: "what? Oh, yes" at which point I told her not to worry about it.
I don't want people like these in my life even if it means no friends. Acquaintances and a good book with have to do.