bisous I am so very sorry. I know a lot of my friends with marginalized identities are feeling like they are living in crisis mode. You are not alone. I think it's okay to be still in your grief for a bit. It's also okay to reach out to your PCP or counselor (if you have one) and ask for help. I have had friends who have been in a similar anxious state and found a low dose, short term, anti-anxiety med helped them through. And like philly-mom suggested, sometimes finding a way to get involved with helping your community can be a positive experience too. Hugs to you!
Mom to two amazing DDs ('07 & '09) and a fur baby.
Gluten free since Nov '11 after non-celiac gluten sensitive diagnosis. Have had great improvement or total elimination of: migraines, bloating/distention, heartburn, cystic acne, canker sores, bleeding gums, eczema on elbows, dry skin and scalp, muscle cramps, PMS, hair loss, heart palpitations, fatigue. I'm amazed.