Oh, I hear you. And I'm a "little older" too.
I have definitely let some things go since sharing a household with other people and there are plenty of ways I'm not running things perfectly (talking to you, pile of magazines and bills and filing on the kitchen counter). But - I also have decided that it's completely legitimate for me to honor how I want to live and what's important to me in a household, and I can and should stand up for that. There are little things I do that bring me peace and a sense of order. I can for the most part ignore the chaos in my kids' rooms, but I make my bed almost every day. I haven't had a mani or pedi in years, but I am someone who showered every day even when I had babies. We all figure out what's important to us. I really don't feel like societal pressures play a role in it for me.
I have worked from home for the past 15 years, for better or worse, and I know that one of my challenges is that I need to stay in my office and focus on work even if there is a pile of dirty laundry. But - since I know the dirty laundry bugs me and distracts me, I would love to find a way to get it done other than me doing it!
My spouse, honestly, is just kind of clueless. He has no concept of all the invisible labor I do. He doesn't think we should be paying anyone to clean at all. I've told him it's a nonnegotiable. We can afford it. He also tends to try to pass off tasks to me, and I ping it right back. I don't have to be the one to plan that vacation or send that birthday gift or be home when we get the windows cleaned. I could go on and on. But I also recognize that there are limits on how much progress I'll make with him, and it's time to find other solutions. (He has his good qualities too.
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Appreciate all the tips.