Originally Posted by
♥ms.pacman♥
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I’m tired and overwhelmed. I know this is horrible to say, but I hate taking care of people. I’m not good at it and it’s exhausting and draining and gives me awful anxiety and depression. I had a very very hard time when my kids were little and I was a SAHM and my DH traveled a lot. Now they are old enough to be independent , my DH works from home and I have a new job I am excited to do well at. Yet my focus and energy are completely shot, and it kills me.
I don't think it's horrible to say it, but I think that, societally, it's so hard to say it out loud to people who don't understand what you mean.
We've "known" each other for almost 14 years thanks to the BBB, and, parasocially, I know you love your family deeply. But it still sucks when you're the one expected to take care of everything/person and you're wiped out.
I often feel the same; it's part of the reason I react so angrily when my DH pulls the "man flu" - it's like the world has to come to an absolute standstill because he's got the sniffles, but I could be running a friggin' fever & be totally delirious and I'd still have to wipe bums and make dinner.
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Liz
DD (3/2010)
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