When it rains it pours
dh was spiraling last week and I decided to bring him to the ER. I was debating it so long that I called in to work via text as I was supposed to be at school. He refused to go so I called 911. We get there and as a routine, they do an EKG which is off. Make a long story short, he has a pulmonary embolism and a dissection of an artery in his stomach.... plus the mental health crisis I actually brought him in for. So now, we've both had a PE. They run in my family which makes me freak out for my kids.
Also, my mom has been in the hospital all week. Her dialysis port was clogged again. 4 surgeries to try and regain access and not surprisingly, she's not 100% lucid. Except they've deemed her competent so she gets to do what she wants. My aunts are calling/texting me every few hours about stuff I cant do anything about.
I'm feeling very alone. DH is unhelpful but he is another adult in the house. I had 3 close friends in town that were emergency contacts for my kids. 1 moved to CA, one moved an hr away and the 3rd died. I know its irrational but I'm worried about what happens to the girls if something happens to me.
dd1 10/05
dd2 11/09
and ... a mini poodle!